Staying alive

As long as I remember, I have been depressed. Or maybe it is my depression telling me so. I used to think that it would eventually go away but now I definitely don’t think so. Some would say it’s pessimistic or even why I can’t get better. I call it being realistic and conscious of my own limitations. I used to look for reasons to be depressed and overtime, I.. Read More

It’s not right but it’s okay

It is no secret that my secret is that I have Fibromyalgia. I am living with an invisible, chronic illness that is beating me up while pretending otherwise. To the eyes of people, I am too young, too lively, too good looking or even too faithful to be sick (I know, I’ve heard it all). Therefore, I can do nothing else but pretend to be okay when I’m around them. Why?.. Read More

Feel Okay with TV Shows/Series

Most bed-ridden people will tell you the same thing : bless the internet, streaming and VoD. If it wasn’t for these things, I would probably miss a lot of what’s going on in the outside world. Mostly, I would miss access to a passive form of entertainment that perfectly suits my way of living. I would love to spend more time outside, doing physical activities and interacting with the real world,.. Read More

In your head

It’s been few weeks (or more maybe) that I didn’t take a single look at this blog. Not that I have been incredibly busy or something but I just felt like I had nothing to share, nothing to tell about. The truth is that here I am now, trying desperately to put words on my feelings but still not convinced that my experience is worthy enough to be shared. Some.. Read More

Pills won’t help you now – Part two

When I look into my side table drawer, I see everything but a twenty-six years old’s side table. Two books that I will eventually finish up reading, a medium-sized case with drugs for practically everything that I am proud to not use as often as it may suggest; a spring water spray, a pen, the last enlightening invention I recently acquired during the international fair of Paris (a TENS* device created by.. Read More

Pills won’t help you now

I should probably take my pills. I need to take whatever is going to help me not hate the world around me. It’s been few weeks after my doctor prescribed me some medication depression and I still haven’t open the bottle yet. I am waiting for the best time to start taking them and it is quite never the right time! Everyday I say to myself, you should have started.. Read More